Thank you for a Goodbye

Infatuation or love? I know! how elementary (and corny) those terms were right? but really how can you differentiate the two.

Years ago, I was reunited with a friend of mine. Despite the distance and the years he remain one of the constants in my life. I have gone into college, work overseas, a decade and half have past and he was still there. Will pay me a visit to our house whenever I'm home. Will give an overseas call and chat for over an hour just to catch up. We had quite some fun adventures together like going to places and its always been a blast. He made sure his presence is felt whenever time and place permit. And I appreciate it. I wouldn't blame myself for being a bit hopeful though, that maybe one day, maybe, all this will lead into something. Because growing up I have the biggest crush on him. So big that I think he was my first love. Or so I thought.

The chances of friends seeing each other abroad and knowing distance isn't a hindrance anymore got me excited. So much to look forward to. So we met. In a span of two months there are good and horrible things that had happened and things that made me realize we are not meant for each other. It was not at all I thought I expected it to be, simply saying he is not the one for me. So I bid goodbye. and this time it was for good. But in the inside I was left wondering why would fate bring us together and make us fall apart too? I waited for him, for this moment, for this chance but why we fell apart? I just didn't get it. It didn't make sense to me.

After a month of nursing my heart,  I met Carlo, my husband. and it is when everything finally made sense to me.

I am a strong believer of fate and destiny. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and oftentimes, it is for a better reason. I realized that even if it shaken me up abit things had to happen because only then I was able to bid goodbye to this person without having any ounce of 'what ifs' and 'could haves'. It gave me a sense of closure I never thought I needed and timing couldn't be more perfect.

When I met my husband my heart is whole and ready. And the rest as they say is history.